Making It Stick

The Hide

These pictures sum up the past few years. I’ve become an expert at hiding behind my family in photos or cropping pictures in just the right places.  Seeing pictures of my regress, yet again, back into “fatland” makes me want to gag. But it still hasn’t been enough to provide another breaking point.  I want to gag, but I don’t want to drag my butt out of bed at 5:30 in the morning.

Consistency has been my major struggle in many areas of life over the past several years.  I’ll start running, start training, start a particular workout program, start changing my diet...then I’ll simply stop after a few days or weeks.  The same pattern carries over in regards to starting a Bible study, starting a more structured schedule with the kids’ school or housework.

This pattern reminds me of this verse from James:
Anyone who listens to the word but does not do what it says is like a man who looks at his face in a mirror and, after looking at himself, goes away and immediately forgets what he looks like.

Creative cropping + "the hide"

I get fired up and excited, making decisions and plans to change things, then wake up in the morning, forgetting (or ignoring) everything I had been excited about changing the night before.

Ironically, after typing and editing this post, I read this relevant post by Jon Acuff that is providing some inspiration regarding my consistency struggle.

In Beth Moore’s “The Lord God Made Woman” audio lecture, she says, “Don’t make a new decision every day.  Decide you’re going to do something, then just do the thing!”  She actually says “thang” in her southern drawl, but I digress.

That’s my backstory.  It’s all future from here on out.  I’m seeking a way to find a place of freedom regarding my weight, my body image, food, and exercise.  And most of all, this time, I want to make it stick!